Studying astrology seemed like such a daunting task, but it seems to be connected to everything magical so I knew I would eventually need some basic working knowledge of it. The thought of learning it all freaked me out because it just seems like so much to tackle. I decided to start somewhere and a few weeks ago I began recording basic astrological info in my journal everyday. Since I’ve been watching the skies (through my computer ..LOL) daily, it’s really helping me to get familiar with the cycles of the moon and how the planets move through the Zodiac. I’ve even been recognizing some of the energy patterns in my life.
I wake up everyday and I strive to live a good life, but I don’t seem to be going anywhere with a focus. Yea, I learn new things and I get random divine insights, but I want to be more connected to the inner happiness inside. I’ve been reading things online about Pagans returning to Christianity, and the skeptic in me scoffs at how ridiculous that sounds. This path is very tough, and there are no instant results, especially when studying and practicing as a solitary. There’s a lot of trial and error, often without any input from others on what direction to take. At the same time, I’ve learned more about myself and the world around me in just a couple short years than I ever did during my years as a Christian. I don’t say this to proclaim Paganism’s superiority over Christianity, but I can’t imagine leaving a religion that challenges and fulfills me to return to one that left me feeling dull and without any hope. I totally respect any Pagan that chooses to become a Christian, but for the many Pagans who have left Christianity only to return to it many years later just seems counterproductive. Even in moments like now where I struggle to find my center and the foundation of my spirituality, I know there are energies that will guide me, as they always have. This is a challenging and rewarding spirituality that I wouldn’t trade for anything.