From the time I can remember being a small boy, I have always had a deep fascination with anything dealing with spirits, the occult, and just spirituality in general. Growing up in a Christian home, I had a relationship with “God” at a very young age, and I followed my beliefs wholeheartedly up into my teen years. As I grew older and started to experience the world through the eyes of a teenage boy, I began to notice that there was something very different about me, but wasn’t sure how to deal with it. Reaching the end of high school, I couldn’t ignore this part of me, and I realized that I was gay. The acceptance of this created a conflict inside me so great, that I just couldn’t take it anymore. I couldn’t understand what I did wrong, or what I could do right to change this. But before I let those feelings overtake me, I decided it was time to move away and start a new life to discover for myself who I was. I stripped myself of everything I believed in and left it far behind. I rejected anything spiritual and decided that nothing existed beyond what my five senses could experience. There was no “God,” no afterlife, and every spiritual encounter I had had up until then was just an active imagination at work.
A few years passed before I began to notice my interest in spiritual things resurface, and I found myself looking for answers to questions that arose in my mind. Why am I here? What does it mean for me to be gay? Is there nothing beyond the here and now? These and many other questions began to flood my mind, and I set out on a journey to answer them. My interest in the occult has brought me in contact with many teachings and practices that have allowed me to see the world through new eyes. I continue to build on my experiences one day at a time, and figure out what it all means to me. I do my best to keep an open mind while the universe guides me through the mysterious realms of beyond, all the while being the person I was always meant to be.