My Journey into Magic so far…

Contemplation is something I do quite often. I’m a thinker. I always have been and I don’t expect that to change anytime soon. I look back over my life and evaluate where I’ve been, things that I’ve experienced, and every once in a while wish certain events would’ve happened a little differently. But since I began this journey not too long ago, I can honestly say there isn’t anything I would change about my life up until now. Even those events that I used to wish could be different, I can see that those were the most important of all in leading me to where I’m at now.

As a young boy, I can recall telling my mom I had psychic powers, and I also believed I could speak to animals. I can remember every year wanting to be a witch for Halloween, only to be ridiculed and told that only girls could be witches. I usually settled for being a “warlock,” which in my 10 year old mind was the only word I knew to describe a male witch. Growing up in a strictly Christian home, it makes me wonder where all these notions came from, and why I believed these things about myself. I’m of the belief that anybody can practice the Craft and there are no “naturally born” witches, but can there actually be something within us that calls us to the Craft even at such a young age? I have always been an outcast and way ahead of my years, so I wonder if these ideas were my natural reaction to feeling left out and just a way for me to feel powerful. I try to be open-minded and not too critical of these experiences, and maybe it’s not my place to question, but I’ve encountered so many memories of these early magical experiences that I can’t help but give them some attention.

As I grew and learned that these magical “fantasies” had no place in the real world, I let them go only to have them return these many years later. I’ve encountered many authors who describe coming to the Craft as a feeling of returning home, and I can totally relate to that now. It’s a return to those innocent beliefs that I held as a child, untainted by the influences of a modern society. As an adult I do understand that many of those beliefs originated from the ignorance of youth, but I now feel that the true magic of Witchcraft is realizing that there actually is some greater force out there who embedded these beliefs within me. I say this not to try to prove anything to anyone, or claim having some kind of special powers granted to me. Finding the Craft has allowed me to return to a place within that was closed off from the world a long time ago, a place where my true self has waited for my arrival. I believe that once we find that place, we are forever changed, and there is no turning back.


One response to “My Journey into Magic so far…

  1. I think that yes, experiencing things at a young age can be a sign of a Crafter in the making. Anybody can learn the Craft for sure, but not everybody wants to. You have to at the very least be relatively open minded, a bit creative and have a level of intelligence or curiosity (although the intelligence may be debatable for some people I’ve met, not going to lie). Some people are more predisposed to be magical I think, even if just for these reasons. 🙂

    When I was younger, I used to think I could control the weather. I remember walking round the playground trying to make the wind blow harder, hehe!

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